From Isolation to Spiritual Awakening
My childhood took place in a small town, in a small neighborhood, in a suburban household. Me and my buddies would ride our bikes around and have little adventures in the neighborhood from dusk until dawn. The friendly neighbors and sweet friendships I made were all I needed. But I never gave it recognition until suddenly everyone was growing up, moving away, or staying indoors with their new video games. Naturally, I was drawn into the new world of gaming, which became a large part of my childhood. It was where I could have more adventure without going anywhere. It was a way to explore without fear or worry about the unknown. It was an engaging experience that had been wrapped in a safety blanket, and I never wanted to let go. This was how I imagined heaven as a child, where all the fun without worry was pure bliss. Whenever I was overwhelmed or unhappy, hiding away in my room felt like my only retreat. Isolation was the only way I knew how to process or deal with my issues. It became my natural state of being, where I felt safe from the rest of the world. But as time went on, that heaven I once knew gradually faded. I became numb to the world, and being alone was my only comfort. Once I was in high school, I noticed how friends and classmates were moving on. They would talk about their exciting weekend adventures; meanwhile, I was still indoors gaming. I would act like it didn’t bother me and make excuses, but it became unbearable.
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